Sunday, October 17, 2004 10:03 PM
amen!
before i say anythg.. i cant resist but set aside this portion for my dear janice!! (this is the closest i could get to pink!!haha ) :) janice janice.. its such a wonderful surprise that we share a common ambition.. anyway, i din manage to say this to you juz now... i totally agree with u abt wad u said abt it bein the will of God! that's so impt.. recently i prayed this prayer.. that if He doesnt want me to teach.. i wun.. i'd rather do sthg that pleases God and has His blessing den do sthg that pleases my flesh n is void of His presence.. yup, thnz for the advice about heels :) btw... I really really believe that God is doing a WONDERFUL work in your life! keep pressin in for more of him..!
praise God for the message that Pst Yang preached today.. i juz loved it.. coz it really brought us back to the truth, n definitely reminded me to start taking up our cross and denying ourselves n following Jesus.. Indeed, we seem to haf forgotten that.. =)
Christianity is not easy.. it never was, n it never will be.. BUT.. its simple.. its juz giving ur life to God and determining to live for Him.
i simply love wad pst yang said today --> about disagreeing totally with this cliche " Some people are so heavenly minded that they are of no earthly use" I really realize that that's SO true! we haf got it all wrong... if onli we, christians, wld get it straight.
We need to start focusing on the things of God, the treasure of heaven, and start taking our eyes off the things and treasures of this earth..
today was truly a fruitful day.. I haven felt this way for a looonnnggg time.. wad am i feeling? I feel lyk i havent wasted the time that the Lord has given to me today.. BUT, e day hasnt ended yet, may God grant me the wisdom to spend the rest of the day well.. haha.. its true rite? usually at the end of the day, i feel lyk i haf juz wasted the whole day.. Definitely having the feeling that u havent wasted a day is great!
ok.. shall cont another time.. right now i'm bein totally consumed by mosquitos!! its terrible... HELP!
to pa --> go back n work la slacker!! hope u enjoy the cd anyways.. =) btw.. dun mention it la.. its my pleasure :)
eme --> I love ya... n pray Eph 6 *winkz*!! call me wheneva u need it k? =)
Thursday, October 14, 2004 7:56 PM
teaching!
exhausted~!! exhausted but satisfied and overflowing with JOY.. hahaha
juz came back from "teaching" at me ex pri school! how cool can that be rite? haha..
events of the day :
woke up.. went swimming with my grandparents (yes.. they SwAM) all the way at bedok.. then rushed all the way to hougang, or rather upper paya lebar rd, lor ah soo.. so go to my beloved pri sch.. for all u who dunno wad wonderful sch it is.. PLMGPS..no.. its not monkey gorilla sch.. HAHAHA..
reached the school and immediately with busy preparing all the experiments and stuff.. filling bottles with alchohol ( not liquor), filling up soap, agar plates bla bla.. and i had to climb up the stairs to the other lab countless times. (people.. PLEASE remind joy NOT to wear high heels tmr.. my feet ache lyk crazy man :] ) but seriously the school has changed SOOO much loh! i mean REALLY.. now lyk super high-tech.. got fountain in the middle of canteen leh! haha.. i noe.. weird.. but still.. its pretty nice..
ok back to the events of the day.. aft preparing all the needed stuff we went for lunch.. and oh man.. i had already forgotten how cheap food in schools are! nothing was more then 2 dollars.. and u cld get waffles at 30 cents leh!! fresh wan somemore... i din manage to get.. shall get it tmr.. HEE..
well.. the class started.. aiyo, these p6 gals ah...so guai leh!! so much betta den some other schools i helped out at.. haha.. i was quite impressed by them la.. we did DNA extraction fr an apple.,.. the results were not too gd, mayb the alchohol wasnt cold enough... but they had fun i guess... we did abt 3 experiments today.. thruout the whole class.. it was so cute, i kept hearing pple say.." miss joy..".."teacher.. " " can i go out and drink some water.. "can i go to the toilet..." lol.. it was really fun la..
unfortunately, one gal broke a glass bottle which contained alchohol.. i tink God really prevented an accident.. coz i was supposed to help them light that bottle, but i helped another table first, then when i came back, one of the gals dropped the bottla.. can u imgine if i had already lit it? wah.. disastrous.. praise God la.. =)
hmm.. today was realli a fruitful day.. i did one of the things i enjoy the most.. teaching!! that's really sthg God has put in my heart since young.. i noe, its weird.. but well.. its true =)
tmr.. is another long day at PL.. but its so different.. i'm going back not as a student, but as a teacher.. (well, more of an assistant).. haha..
btw.. remb i mentioned now the sch islyk super high-tech? there's a auto-lock when u close the door, so u muz be careful not to.. and u can onli open the door with a finger scan leh!! haha.. i kept trying it, and guess wad it kept saying? "ACCESS DENIED" hahah!
yup... so much has changed.. so many memories.. and i gotta say this.. i juz LOVE my pri sch!! haha.. tmr i MUST look for Mrs Poh.. hee.. sorry pple.. i love her n i dun care how u feel abt her!
that's all for today.. yes.. no high heels tmr!!
Wednesday, October 13, 2004 5:59 PM
simple
to go or not to go.. that is the ques.. haaha
life is full of decisions, life is made of decisions, every decision counts..
if u're like me, its hard making decisions.. even simple ones, wad to eat bla bla.. all these minor stuff are not realli impt, but wad abt the eternal things of God.. wad do we do when it comes to makin decisions that down the rd wld influence our lives tremendously? Like the way we respond when God brings us thru the fire, wad we do when He brgs trials into our life.
actually its pretty simple.. look to the Bible for answers!! wad does the Bible say? Praise God! so simple..
"O God.. unite my heart to praise, fear and love You.. You are faithful and Your gracious eye is constantly watching me.. Thank You Lord! Renew my vision, increase my love for You.. Lord, all i want is You.. "
Friday, October 08, 2004 5:30 PM
flu bug!
flu bug has attacked me!! got four medicine to eat leh!!! sobsobsob
since i couldnt realli do much in the past few weeks, with headaches, cough, sore throat.. basically the flu bug, it caused me to do quite abit of thinking..
thinking about the love we shld be having for God..the REAL way christian life shld be lyk..seriously there's so much more to life...
haha.. wad if we knew we were gonna die in a certain number of days..how wld we live our life? u noe wad? hopefully we would be living the same way that we are everyday, coz if we do that it means that everyday we are living it to the fullest and to the way God wants us to! =)
BUT, more often then not, many of us are not living our lives the way God wans us to, and if we found out we would die soon, it would drastically change the way we live (at least i hope so :) )
some of the things i would do is go out on to the streets and share with pple the love of Christ! I would also spend more time, much more time with God.. there's so many other things that i would do.. but most imptly, it would be to secure my relationship with our Father and to share that love with as many pple as i can..!
Y not start now? you and i dun need a "special" time before we start doing wad we noe the Lord wans us to do.. start today!! :)
Monday, October 04, 2004 8:44 PM
It all begins in the heart
ahhh!!!! Juz typed a really long entry and it kana deleted coz the server got prob...lyk woo hoo.. HAHA..
Anyway, so much has happened in the past few months!! Praise God!
It seemed not too long ago that I was feeling so terrible spiritually, didn't understand one bit wad was happening.. I felt so dry, that my love and passion for God was juz dying, was losing my faith in God and His promises, was losin vision of my purpose in life and felt lyk I was on the brink of giving up... But yet deep down in my leart, I longed to return to that place of first love for God...
Last last Sunday, doing ministry time, God really spoke to me thru the pple that prayed for me... That day and in the nz few days.. God kept confirming it in His word..
I have learnt the most impt lesson of my life so far..that is to have a SOFT HEART and childlyk faith in God.. Shared it in cell on sat too, coz its really somethings that is fresh in my heart..haha..
In Matthew 13, Jesus tells us abt 4 different types of hearts..
1. the heart that doesnt understand 2. the heart that "has no root in himself" (not willin to go all the way) 3. the heart that is choked by the things of the world 4. the heart that has good ground (the soft heart!) What condition is our heart in? Jeremiah 17 : 9 - "The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it?"
Just tink with me about the day you received Christ and the way u lived your life for the nz few days... You could love the Lord and trust Him with your heart so easily.. but sometimes, as we grow older in the faith, we tend to use our heads more then our hearts.. When that starts to happen, our hearts can get hardened in the process and we start to become skeptical about the things that the Lord is doing, want to have proof etc.. I realize that that is exactly why i was feeling the way i was..my heart had hardened and i chose not to believe God ! A hardened heart is a serious thing.. when u haf a hardened heart, u choose not to believe, you choose to doubt, you choose to make things difficult for urself, and basically you lose that childlike faith and soft heart that u started out with..
We all want to please God don't we? The Bible says without faith its impossible to please God...without a soft heart, we cant have faith and without faith we cant please God!! That's y having a hardened heart is so dangerous.. a hardened heart is the beginning of destruction.. But praise God that He didn't juz leave me in the place where i was.. God can change a hardened heart for a soft heart and thats wad i prayed the Lord would do for me.. i don't eva want to haf a hardened heart again, i don't eva wanna doubt God again, and i don't eva wanna grieve our Lord again.. my cry is.. "Change my heart Lord!"
Right now, all i can say is thankyou Lord.. God is juz so amazing, and once again He nvr let me out of the palm of His hand.. I realize that thruout these few months, when i felt my worst, God was ALWAYS beside me, walking and watching me every step of the way.. In the same way that He is watching and protecting all of u amen? =)
Well i truly learnt a very valuable and precious lesson.. May all of us ask God to search our hearts.. And if our hearts are in that process of hardening or are not as soft as it shld be, its not the end!Pray that the Lord would give you a soft heart that pleases Him and saves u from all the unnecessary depression and confusion..
God is faithful!!
