Thursday, November 11, 2004 10:40 PM
continuation
ah yes.. in my previous entry i din mention about wad happened on mon.. well.. went to help aunty maureen relief teach at gongshan pri sch with chiang n mok..!
super funny la.. when we reached the sch.. we were kinda early, den i juz mentioned, "the best thing abt teaching in schools is that the food is super cheap!" n chiang said thats exactly wad she wanted to say!! HAHHA.. ( i'll mention more abt the food later :P )
we all had our different classes.. i took a pri 3 class first.. there was this gal keep coming to me, say she got nothing to do n no one want to play with her.. so i ended up asking her to draw etc.. den she v funny man.. ask me if i'm married.. !! hahah den aft that, took a pri 1 class.. i din need to do anythg man! the class monitress was doing all the shouting.. den i juz sit back n relax loh.. HAHA
ok.. now back to the food issue.. all three of us had a free break.. so we went to go do wad we haf been longin to do... try the foodd.. silly us, ate some chicken cutlet thing.. it was TERRIBLE! uRGh.. ahha.. (we were lyk the onli ones eating it...).. but well.. lets be thankful we haf food to eat yea? (went marche today.. HAHA)
my last class was the most havok man.. had to keep shouting at thme.. scolding them.. coz the small pri 1 malay boys keep fighting.. dunno go play in the toilet.. den had to brg them to one side n scold them.. HAIYO.. helped this one boy fold a paper boat.. so fun!! haha.. then when they greet me, got this one boy call me "MRS Tan" !! there was this gal, made me some barbie diary.. HAHAHHA.. cute la... den alot of them draw pictures n all n gave to me.. so sweet la.. juz love kids man
WEll.. it was realli an experience.. i seriously enjoy teaching.. =) (altho' i din do any teaching ) "Thank You Lord for giving me the little opportunity =) "
ah.. before i end.. went to eat at genki sushi aft that.. and guess who we met.. ? Nelson n Jane.. n ... my favourite baby!! AUDREY!!! so cute la.. den she keep smiling at me.. n i carried her.. her looks change again.. but still as pretty.. pretty audrey!
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 11:00 PM
so muchh..
joy is back!
well..seriously, so much has been happenin..
God has realli done so much in my heart.. =)
For one thing..i realized how little i trust n depend on the Lord.. for Him to do ALL that He wans with us, we hafta be totally dependent on Him.. i thought i was.. but i was so wrong.. lets take the air for example.. we all need the air to live, without air we feel the difference, we KNOW that we dun haf air, its an obvious suffocating feeling..but we can live without God in our lives n not even feel the difference, when we go to our schools, do our own things, we juz forget abt Him and the best part is, we dun even feel the difference!! that juz shows how little we depend on God.. That's me too.. i've realli been asking the Lord to make me dependent on Him.. there's so much more!
The Sunday on which Arthur Katz preached during the 2nd svc was reallit he climax for me.. Basically He shared the the real apostolic church has a radical anticipation of the future.. to have eternity in mind in wadeva we do.. =) we haf to come to that point where we noe it deep down in our hearts that
this world is temporal!!
Another thing that i tink will carry me thru for a long long time.. is that i now realize how very prone i am to failures.. it doesnt mean that if u go up for an altar call, u will immediately be changed and become miss goddy-two shoes.. i used to tink that way, n got so discouraged when i failed once again.. of course God can change u.. but more often than not.. we need to continuously ask God for the grace, and that day, i made a prayer.. that even if i fail n fail n fail n keep failin that i wan to put my trust n faith in the Holy Spirit to continually teach n guide me.. makes a difference doesnt it when u're mentally prepared?? hAhah
but i tink.. the most impt impt thing is.. that besides all this lessons n stuff that the Lord is teaching n revealin.. i never eva wan to make the same mistake as before n put my trust in the stuff i learn.. coz once i do that, i noe i've shifted my focus off the Lord..
"Lord.. all i want is You.. help me put aside all distractions and focus on You.. amen"
