Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:05 PM
well.. right now i'm juz sittin in front of the com with a cup of cold coffee..(plus my added special ingredient =P) ah.. the feeling of satisfaction. haha. i muz say today was a realli productive day for myself.. tho i'm feeling sick lyk anythg.. with fever, sore throat n runny nose, i still managed to finish 8 hrs of studying. !! Thank God for His grace!
i met winnie on sun aft church.. its been lyk 3 yrs since i last saw her! we had a great time toking.. n toking .. n toking.. yup, basically thats all we did.. we juz toked! haha. but it was a realli wonderful time of sharing la. honestly, i realli missed her... so i'm realli glad we finally managed to mt up..!!
winnie is someone who will always hold a special place in my heart.. we've been thru so much togetha!! i still remb all those crazi things we used to do.. we drove our classmates crazi with all our silly songs.. n not to mention our story our how we became frenz. we wld say, " one day we met each other, n we fought n rolled down the hill.. !!!" ahahah. right.. that was when we were p6 la.
winnie, if u ever read this... thankz for everythg! =)
Friday, October 14, 2005 10:45 PM
a beautiful poem
I thank God for the bitter things
They've been a friend to grace
They've driven me from paths of peace
To storm the secret place.
I thank God for friends who failed
To fill my heart's deep need
They've driven me to the Saviour's feet
Upon His love to feed.
I'm grateful too, through life's way
No one could satisfy
And so i've found in God alone
My riches, my full supply.
Thanks juliana for sharing this poem with me! =)
Its amazing how one poem can say all that is in my heart. I truly thank the Lord n praise Him for everything He's brought into my life... coz somehow, no matter how bitter, tough n painful the experiences were, every single circumstance pushed me to Him. And made me juz want to run into His arms. Its true, nothing else in that world can ever fill that emptiness in my heart. Tho' the emptiness is still unfilled, like a dunkin donuts without the filling (haha!) but at least i noe in my heart that nothing, no not anythg will ever satisfy me, except, the person of Jesus. That's all i realli want. If onli i knew this God that christians seem to noe so well, if onli i could spreak to HIm the way moses did, even onli i had the real thing... if onli.... I pray for that day to come.
Saturday, October 08, 2005 9:40 AM
what to do.
What can i do. sometimes i realli feel so helpless. In fact, not sometimes.. rather.. all the time. All i want to do is help, but i cant say or do anythg that wld change the situation. sigh.
ive been realizing sthg the past few days.. the christian walk is a lonely walk. Yes there are other christians and frenz arnd, but when everythg is taken away, u realize the onli thing that will stand is ur relationship with God. yes, it truly is a lonely walk...
Its been 3 wks, but my heart still hurts so bad. call me stupid if u want, and i would totally agree. I wonder why God ever let me go thru it. WHy i was so extremely stupidly stupid. All i know is He holds the whole world in His hands.
I want to fall into my Fathers hands, coz its the onli place i feel safe n secure.
Saturday, October 01, 2005 11:46 AM
Memories
Last night was clearing out my cupboard n happened to come across this blue file.. yes, to all the older gen-ers, it is that BLUE FILE. the one that u guys put togetha as a "good-bye" gift when i departed to india. haha. well.. i went thru it, and man, cldnt stop the tears from coming to my eyes la. all those memories, when we were all sec 1 n 2 kids.. haha... i shld show u guys the photos man! all of us changed so much... !
memories.. its a beautiful thing isnt it? Its wad constitutes our past.. yet, memories are not always beautiful, some memories are buried deep in our hearts, where we pray it will nvr be uncovered, coz its juz too painful. Sometimes i wish we had some kind of "delete" button, so we cld put all our "ugly" memories in the trash. But as i was tinking abt it, i realized that all our memories n experiences... whether they were gd or bad, make us who we are today. lyk pple always say, we learn from our failures..
True, all those memories that u wished u din haf hurt so much everytime u tink of it. But then again, i guess i wldnt trade it for anything. Coz tts wad makes me who i am today. Memories aside, i guess its the lessons learnt that will stay with us for the rest of our lives.
So no matter how much it hurts, I'm still thankful that the Lord put me thru it. Truly His grace is the onli thing that is pulling me thru.
